***
of course I did.
I said
I broke up
my tyrant heart
like a planet,
like all the little bits of me
(stomach, lungs, skin)
warred
and allied
and took her out,
took out
all my cravings for power
and control,
took them apart and
scattered them about
like useless rocks.
Maybe I meant it
like a wish,
because
I lied,
I don’t want to
break my heart
kill my feelings
make myself a soulless demon
or something
I don’t want to die
licking another mud puddle
cuz my emotions
turned cold as space,
so I lied to you
I wanted you to think
I’d found peace
in this distant, elevated way of no feeling,
I wanted you to think
I’d conquered evil
like a good sister saint,
I wanted you to think
the solar system of my body
had a stable thing going,
like maybe you could like me
for overcoming
tyranny
like a hero would
***
Happy Halloween! Also I have a book that’s totally Halloween themed, it’s got necromancers and skeletons and stuff. Check it out here.
Jordyn Saelor 