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What’s the biggest asteroid of my heart

still spinning ‘round inside me?

I don’t think it’s you.

Maybe it’s me.

Maybe it’s the knight I killed

on my seventieth birthday

since a part of him lives in me.

(We drank his blood

to live longer

like the yara-ma-yha-who

taught us from his fig tree.)

Perhaps it’s not possible to tell what the largest asteroid is,

since so many chunks float on this orbit

it’d take more time than I care to spend

to categorize them.

Even though

I have all the time in the realms,

it’s still time

I don’t want to spend like this;

I’d rather not

inspect these insides

any more than I have to.

So maybe that’s the largest asteroid of my heart

still spinning around,

seeking power over me–

this fear

of finding out

and knowing

what all my pieces hold.