Today’s Prompt: What does your ideal day look like?
My ideal day doesn’t have a face, so I don’t know what it looks like.
Honestly, that was my only idea about this prompt. I don’t know what my ideal day looks like, physical form or no. So here’s a poem about some non-ideal daily circumstances I was in a couple years ago (yes, I’m in a better place now):
Come in, with the hem of night.
Come along, do a dance for me
in that black dress fraying of twilight.
Beneath the stars, we speak of need
And the rhythm of the sun hears us,
I will wrap you up in my pretty language, you,
lime the lavish lavender lights hollowing liquid luminescence
and I will blind you to lure you home
under this speckled dome.
But, we speak of need
beneath the sun,
dawn catches us in our fever dreams,
A hunger growls in my belly,
quivers my fingers like jelly,
and all the lavender lights leak like sodden meringue.
Blind you, silence the lion in your stomach,
I drag nothing but my self home starving.
Independent of consequences, all idealizations,
I would dance beneath every meteor shower,
under every rainstorm,
lose my breath and catch it again with each vibration of thunder.
Spoken from the mish-mash of dawn-dead dreams,
I take and I take and I glut myself with the taking and my living can never be measured with calorie counters or serving spoons, two weeks to empty a milk gallon goes faster than my forgetting how long it took so I buy two more to last four weeks and in the next year of living on my own I need twenty-six for fifty-two weeks, no more, no less, and this is my
this is my
counting crumbs of muffins
and my going to bed hungry
and my bloody noses by lack of iron
and my smoothies with spinach greens
and my skipping dessert by the near-empty candy bag that must never be emptied for the sake of saving myself having to say goodbye
and my cutting myself into a box same shape as an apartment’s walls and a calendar’s squares
because by my independence
I will survive.
I waltz a twilight-hemmed divide: living, surviving,
living amidst lightning stricken storms, surviving inside a barbed box,
but at least from within this box
the lightning paints itself
a lavish lavender light, luminescent, lingering on my eyelids electric lime.
2 thoughts on “January 13th, 2022/independent of dawn-dead dreams”
Ideal day at home (not on vacation or something): want to get out of bed. Take our time with everything. Not overwhelmed. Make and eat breakfast. Taste the food. Not repulsed or scared. Read and learn and journal and feel purposeful but not false hope or honeymoon hope but confidence. Get some chores done. Go birdwatching or nature hiking. Breathe. Have a best companion with us. Eat lunch without food stress or obsession. Don’t even notice toileting today. Journal. Loving kindness meditation, breathing maybe a nap. Finish chores. Make love. Spouse thinks our non-binary appearance is bewitching. Eat dinner someone else made, barbecue. Listen to music and dance. Have children text us how happy they are and that they love us. Do some art. Play a family game, cards or telestrations. Laugh a lot. Have a snack. Fall asleep instantly.
That sounds like a nice day indeed:) I’d really enjoy the art and music and dancing parts of that day. And Telestrations is a fantastically hilarious game
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