lie la lah/Mie ma mah

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Lie la lah

don’t you ever worry

about right and wrong?

Don’t you have

a tug of war inside yourself

between being good to people

and taking what you know you can?

Between respecting the wants and needs of others

and showing them what you are fully capable of?

Don’t you do things

sometimes

just because you’re angry

or lonely

then regret it

and try to pay for it?

Don’t you ever worry

a force of retribution is looming over your shoulder

waiting for you to make a mistake

so it can come cracking across your neck?

I think

I’ve been living that way

for a long time.

I think

I’ve turned into some tyrant

that hundreds of years ago

I did my best to stop

for the sake of order

and small children

and everyone getting along.

But now

I just don’t care

and I know enough magic

that hardly anyone can stop me

and most of the ones that could

are worse,

except

I sort of stop myself

with this fear

of punishment.

Though maybe

the worst punishment

is the fear of it

followed by the guilt

that sniffs me out

by the squashed fear guts all over me

and tries to swallow me.

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Mie ma mah

Dr. Mizto said

yeah

I’ve got no clue what you’re talking about.

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